what it means to crash and burn...but then survive

we can compare this chemistry class to an airplane ride gone terribly wrong. you're cruising at an altitude of 33,000 feet. all of a sudden one thing goes wrong and your whole life is at stake. you get in the emergency position, say a little prayer, and brace for impact. in the same way, you can cruise through high school considerably easy, but then you take this one awful class in college which you recieve failing test scores and you prepare for the awful plummit that puts your educational career on the line. you study, not thinking its hopeful, say a little prayer, and take the test that you know is going to finish you.

well, today i have that feeling you could imagine when you are expecting no more than to crash and burn, but somehow, through divine intervention, survive. how amazed would you be that you survived a plane crash? well, to some extent, thats how this chemistry test was today.

I PASSED! I PASSED! how fab-dab-ulous is that?? so i totally didn't understand what the heck was going on in this chem class no more than three days ago and i've managed (with some self-instruction and the aid of a wonderful girl named amy) to pull off a B on one of the biggest tests of my life. molecular orbitals, electronic geometry, vsper theory, bourn-haber cycle, lewis structures, i conquered you. its amazing how a few Fs on tests will totally demolish any expectaions you've set for yourself over the past thirteen years (yes, even a four year old kindergartener has to set expectations). so maybe an 84 doesn't seem all that great, but when you've been failing, that B looks pretty darn good. i've calculated it out, and as of now i have an 83 in chem. hopefully the torrents of finals won't rip it out of my feeble grip. gotta keep hope and gotta stay in honors. wow. if thats the goal of my first semester of freshman year, what do i have to look foreward to? well, at least this test has offered me a ray of hope in this God forsaken class.

i have finished for the day...well, kinda. i've been putting off this english paper because i'm too distracted by my earlier success. my daddy is coming this evening to eat dinner with me, and then flying me on his plane tomorrow afternoon to ARUBA for two-four, count it, 24 hours! oh, the benefits of flying for free. whats funny is that my mom was originally gonna go with him, but now she's taking fa (or grandfather, as he prefers to be called) to the doctor cuz mimi can't drive or something rather. thats not the funny part. the funny part is that earlier (november 12) i was saying that next time they jump on a plane, it might be to the carribbean...which was actually what the plan was. hahaha! foiled them!

oh, total hours of studying for this test: 26...give or take. and sorry about the not so pleasant analogy.