Friday, October 28, 2005

bigger

two squeaky honks sounded from behind me. the honks weren't much different from the sound a clown's nose would make if you pinched it. i shifted my jog a little further to the right to allow an old couple on a golf cart to pass (golf carts somewhat resemble clown cars, you know). yes indeed...i was home. i was home running on the same paths my little feet pitter-pattered on heading to elementary school.

i like running because i get to think. taking a run down memory lane made me realize how different life was back then. a pang of nostalgia crept in. everything is so much bigger now. obviously, i'm bigger. my responsibilities are bigger...my decisions are bigger. i've got bigger things to cry about than my dalmatian toy being placed in the june box and bigger things to get excited about than picking out which lisa frank eraser i want.

those days were good while they lasted. but onto bigger and better things. on that same path i had very different thoughts. rather than begging my parents to give me a puppy, i'm praying to God to give me wisdom. it was a nice, long run.

9 comments:

Jonathan said...

The depth of this post really moves me. It's one of those times when you reflect on the ever-progressing movement of life, and our inability to stop it - even just for a while - to really cherish and appreciate these days. We don't realize how small our concerns are, until bigger ones come along. For me, the world has gotten smaller as I have gotten bigger, but as my understanding of God has gotten bigger, my confidence in my own strength has nearly vanished.

Thank you for your thought-provoking post.

Were the golf cart drivers wearing clown noses? Maybe they were actually honking their noses at you.

Colettie said...

not to totally discredit all the profound comments you have, beans, but...

the fact that you actually wrote about JUNE BOXES and LISA FRANK makes me happy. (and puts me back in that warm, braelinn elementary september when mrs. norman took my lisa frank rainbow eraser (with the bunny ballerina on it) and put it into the june box, to be left on that unfathomably high top shelf. that stung to the core. not that i was a bad kid ;-)

Jeannine said...

thanks bradley and jonathan for appreciating something so simple :)

haha! that wretched june box. i cried my heart out, too. colette, you make me laugh.

WATERFALL DESCENDER said...

In the words of the wise Yoda...

"You must unlearn what you have learned"

You are bigger, and it is appearent that your love of God is grower bigger as well.

Remember, these things...

Proverbs 4:7***
Wisdom is the prinicpal thing: therefore get wisdom; and with it get understanding.

and James 1:5...
If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbradieth not; and it shall be given to him.

Prayers for you that the Lord will be your ultimate guide, and show you his unique plan for you in the days ahead.

In Christ,
Gregg

Anonymous said...

what's a june box?

Jonathan said...

June Box: Isn't that one of those machines you put a quarter in at the skatin' rink and it plays Cindy Lauper?

Jeannine said...

june box (n): the cursed destination of all confiscated toys, including items that have been made into toys by the child's imagination. a teacher has full authority to place said items in the june box if the child is caught playing with it during class. items can only be reclaimed at the end of the school year, in june.

Anonymous said...

If I remember the Junebox episode correctly, your dalmation did not go into the wretched box. You slyly replaced that much adored item with the closest thing in your desk...a crayon. (You were quick even as a first grader!) Unfortunately, the crayon was your favorite, carnation pink, and your tears were for the loss of the crayon. I believe you dried your tears with the beloved dalmation toy. xoxomom

Jeannine said...

haha :)

actually, i think that was the first time i got caught playing with it. i guess the next time i wasn't quick enough. the embarrassing thing is that people to this day still remember "that time when you got your dalmation toy taken up and you cried." i'm glad thats the thing everyone thinks of when they remember me in elementary school...