Today's Menu: GRITS

thats right. i ate some for the first time in about 3 years this morning. haven't been missing out on too much. theres just something about that white, grainy, congealing slop on your plate that reminds you that you are a resident of the south. quite homey, even though the elegant southern dish was never served at my yankee transplant breakfast table. actually, there is a better reason why i'm discussing grits. today i g.ot r.eady for i.ntensive t.est s.tudying. okay, so maybe that isn't a better reason, but i figured i'd make a fun acronym for the heck of it.

my first college exam is no more than 15 hours and 42 minutes away. quite frankly, it frightens me. i definately took a "practice exam" online and definately scored a 67%. crap. so far, the 8 hours plus of studying for this test hasn't paid off. chemistry. not just any old chemistry class. i had to get thrown into the honors class...with the chem majors...those strange people who actually care about how many moles are in a gram of NaHCO3. God made this world the way it is, it works, it will always work. thats a good enough explaination of my surroundings for me. i'm sure my african-american, 250 lb, 6 ft 3, pure muscle, could-have-played-pro-football linebacker professor won't accept that answer on the exam tomorrow. alas, i will stay up until the wee hours of the morning trying to memorize how to name chemical compounds. which come first...anions, cations, do they end in -ate, -ite, -ic, -icarenot? my optomisim is just seeping through the spaces of this paragraph, right?

self-mutilation. not something you want to read about everyday, right? well, i would have preferred not to have been subjected to such terrible depictions of what people do to themselves, but of course, motives for writing had other plans for me. it is beyond me how people do things like that to themselves. i know this isn't the lightest subject, but the essay i read for english class yesterday is pushing me to say this: if you are feeling really sad and depressed, maybe a hug is something you should look into.

atleast something good is going on today...ruf! yay! i actually have to go meet up with colette and anna at snelling before we head off to church. now i have an excuse to take a break from the studying and relax. i've been having grits all day...definately not having them for dinner :).